So in all honesty….
It’s been a while since I posted something. But….., it’s been a rough couple of weeks. But God in his loving nature once again showed me that just as Jeremiah 29:11 said, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
So as you know, I live in the state with the most bipolar weather, Massachusetts!😒 Yes! 😒😒 the state where it snows during the spring, I mean… What’s up??!!. Anyways, so every year I try to get a weekend away around this time to a warm place (preferably Florida) to get away from the cold, freezing Massachusetts weather.
So as usual, I planned to go to Florida, but this time, I felt different about it. I was scared. Not scared because someone would do something to me. But scared because of what I could do on my own. Honestly, I didn’t trust myself.
This was a place where I was at my lowest, this was a place filled with memories. A place I felt I couldn’t be my “new” self, because everyone there knew me as this wild party animal. I didn’t want to be fake, I didn’t want to go back to my old ways as well. I was afraid of certain truths that could be revealed about my past. Coming face to face with my terrible, painful past I had ran from… Among others
So here I was torn between, going to Florida, enjoying the sun, facing one of my biggest temptations since I decided to fully give God my everything, and staying back in the cold, depressing Boston weather with no temptations.
I remember I spoke with this friend who has seen me blossom into the child of God I had become, who knew my past as well. His first question when I mentioned a Florida trip was something like ” Lilian this is a bad idea” kinda like why are you going back there?!
But something within me was just like I should go.
Long story short, God showed me that he had a higher plan…I rekindled a couple of deep friendships that weekend in such a beautiful way, formed new ones, and I didn’t need to “change” to do this, it all came together nicely. God did it. It was all about Him.
So I just want to say thank you Father.🙏